Being a Lone Wolf isn't that bad.

Over the years I have always tried to fit in with different social groups. I did this because of many reasons that were never the right reasons. I struggled to find out who I was and where I belonged in this world.

The truth is I still don't know. What I do know is that trying to someone I'm not wasn't it.

I pushed too hard for people to like and accept me, but the "ME" wasn't me. I lost many people along this journey. I lost friendships and relationships that do upset me to this day. You may have felt this too at some point in your life or right now even.

What I came to realise was that I needed to separate myself from the people and things I was trying to hard for and focus my attention and energy on finding who I am as a person in my life journey.

I left the toxic people and situations. I battled my demons and my toxic thoughts/behaviours. This is still an ongoing battle as these will never be erased from within me. They can only be identified and managed.

This lead me to a Lone Wolf type of lifestyle. I don't keep many close friendships (2-3 people at the most) and I have decided I do not NEED to be in a relationship that doesn't provide me with growth and support in my journey. I'm not saying or forcing anyone to do what I did. This was my choice, my decision. I found this helped me find myself.

I let go of NEEDING to fit in and focused more on WANTING to be at peace and content with my life and my journey. I no longer seek validation or acceptance from others anymore. I am my own best friend and my own cheerleader. I no longer accept praise and compliments that are superficial or flattering anymore as I no longer feel the need to fuel my ego and pride. I no longer participate in negative and toxic conversations or situations as they do not serve my growth and wellbeing.

I have come to realise that life is not a competition with the people of this world but a competition with my past self. The one that led me down the path of needing to feel included and wanted by others and acting like someone I'm not.

I have found who I was meant to be and that path lead me to a life journey as a Lone Wolf. I do what I need to do for my greater good and this has opened up my desire to help and boost others to grow in their life's journey. It has helped me rediscover my lost passions and several new passions I would never have considered before.

Being a Lone Wolf isn't as lonely as people glamourise it to be. I am not afraid of being alone anymore nor do I feel lonely. I have become my own best friend and that is the best feeling I have ever felt. I no longer feel the pressure or resentment to someone I'm not to fit in where I know deep down I don't belong. I no longer feel the need to put others well-being before my own unless it is a scenario of preventing injury or death. I no longer put my happiness and emotional well-being aside to attend to others happiness and well-being. I no longer associate with toxic people or events.

I have eliminated, to the best of my abilities, to becoming that in which I would like to see in this world. And this is how I reached a life of a Lone Wolf.

I am not saying I don't WANT more appropriate friendships with people that value me and my core beliefs or to be in a relationship that not only loves me for the person I am and continue to become. Far from it. What I am saying is that these people will find me when that time is right for all of us along our journeys.

I wish all of you who are reading this the best in whatever you do and all the love and support to reach your goals on your life's journey.

Keep strong and resilient.

"Don't worry, I got this!"